“There though that’s all I felt: pessimistic. I tend

“There is no cure.” I laughed when my doctor nervously uttered these words to me. It was not one of those panicky laughs or chuckles full of disappointment. This was my regular euphoric laugh. I did not laugh because I was happy about the news. In fact, I was a little terrified because I did not know what that meant for me. I laughed to avoid any pessimistic feelings in the room, even though that’s all I felt: pessimistic. I tend to do this a lot. Turning an unfortunate situation into something more sanguine is what draws many people towards me. Making others feel good is my life’s goal, which all started three years ago. Three years ago was my first hospital visit for the symptoms I began presenting from my chronical illness. It was not until two years later when I got a diagnosis. Within this two year period I surprisingly learn a lot about myself. Doctor after doctor, I was told the same things. No one knew what was wrong with me or how to make me feel better. I learned to smile through the toughest times of my life. The hardest part about having a chronic illness is that physical things became ten times harder. Being a dedicated softball player, I felt as if I had to push myself extra hard. I made a commitment to my team and I was not going to let them down. This mentality helped me become the third best pitcher in my city and win three awards. Curiosity was never a trait that I had before I got sick, but with a stronger outlook on things, I am open to all things. I am willing to take risks in life as I did in the hospital. With my conditions I taught myself to be selfless and gain a sense of social responsibility. Besides becoming a better version of myself, I also obtained a great deal of knowledge about hospitals, doctors, patients, and more. This triggered a tendency to enter the medical field. I want to be apart of the solution and help those in need. Bringing awareness of the disease and embracing the opportunities to advocated it is something I want to continue to do. Now, with treatment I continue to be dedicated and committed to everything I do. Being open to new things and taking risks is something I practice everyday. I lead those who I see need leading and push others to exceed what they feel they can not do. My life experiences have shaped my into the person who I will continue to be and opened door that I thought could never be open.